Firstly , i wanna thank all those that send me birthday wishes T.T *gandong* Although i didn't celebrate it alone, ( i thought i would O.O ) i got presents from my cousins, boyf even send me a present from Malaysia ! His dad courier it for him, so nice T.T sighs. I was really happy with it :) he bought a card to call me also that night and sang me the birthday song, he's the only one that call and sang me a birthday song T.T

It was true that i was really happy :)

But only at that time.

All my smiles and laughter are fake, seriously. Haha :D I know actually how damn miserable i am here. But now I'm already bored of being sad, bored of crying, bored of being miserable. So i guess being happy is the only thing i can do now, even thought its fake :D its okay right, I'm already use to it.

I'm sorry that i always write post about my pathetic life, its the only place i can write you know T.T

I know many of you think that coming to overseas to study is darn cool. But but you should appreciate your time with your family or your loves one? wtf. o.o seriously. Your parents might be really irritating or controlling you all the time ( maybe some only la wtf ) or maybe they nag at you all the time. okay fine maybe they never control you or nag at you wtf. my parents do, but now i realise how important they are to me >_> living in a place with no parents and no friends make you realise it T.T Yeah yeah i have my relatives here, but they don't care you know, they have their own things to do. Like when i told my uncle i need to go for my dentist checkup appointment, he's not going to fetch me there you know. He gave me a map and ask me to go myself, whether walking or taking a bus. wtf, I'm new here FYI i don't even know the way or which bus to take. But who's gonna care anyways. In Malaysia people fetches me to everywhere i go T.T and I've never go alone to anywhere, maybe i have but its because i know the place la. HAHA. OH wtf i damn lame T.T

And it's so cold here. Well, to me only la wtf because I'm not use to it. -.-

Owh owh and my relatives always tells me how lucky i am here that i have a place to stay and have everyone for me here. And last time when they came, they were alone with no place to stay and gotta find their own place to stay ( wtf i damn cheong hei T.T) But they were already like 20 plus when they are here, I'm 15, still underage you know, i can't even sign up for my own phone ! wtf. I use my cousin's girlf name to sign up for the phone. sighs. i mean i can do things on my own la, but its hard you know. I've never been alone doing everything before :(

It may sounds easy and fun for all of you guys, its because you guys never come to overseas alone also T.T ( OK wtf maybe its really easy but I'm really not use to it !!!111 D: )

& do you know how hard it is to pretend to be happy T.T I live my life here meaninglessly, i envy you people, at home where you're suppose to be, going where you wanna go, hanging out around. etc. o_o * sigh sigh*

Sorry readers, (if you are even reading) -.- don't have to read this i damn free go post stupid things xD

Well anyways,

So many DEC babies :D

Shawn khoo .

Chermaine .

Pauline .

etc etc -.-

Happy birthday (:

Not semangat to continue posting already, will continue next time xD ( again)

Owh gosh what a long long post :D HARHAR.